[14:23:00 - 15:58:00] Yura's Sad Birthday and the Book Dedication

Yura was very sad. I came after work, because all Sunday and Saturday we were buying groceries, I cooked like crazy. And then friends also arrived, who brought more boxes of all sorts of food, which was very democratically arranged on the tables. Yura was very sad. For some reason, it was sad for him. His birthday. And after, when all the guests had left, somehow everything was, somehow cleaned up, some food was, well, hidden away, we were left alone, and Yura somehow started looking through books. The first trigger, this forgotten Chechnya, his books, had already arrived, there were probably about 15, maybe 20 books. And he said that I didn't manage to inscribe them. And now I will pass them on to be inscribed. And suddenly he started talking about some of his close people, explaining that, well, he is like this, he always needs help, he needs support, as if telling me, 'there is such a close person, well, he seems strong, but he is actually still small inside, he needs support.' And this person, he seems so stern, I will inscribe a book for him, but he actually has a lot of tenderness, uh, some kind of internal brokenness, that needs to be remembered, that he is not so, not so stern. And so he talked and talked, and I understand that I am not on these lists.